Indomitable

Original photo-taken at Muir Woods.

I adore indomitable people!

I am blessed to know many. Theses spirits are warriors! My children, my Beloved, my sisters and a very special friend warm me today. They are the fire that warms my heart.

David and Margaret, thank you for persisting. I know it has not been easy since the divorce. Thank you for tucking your chins down and continuing forward. You are both strong and conquering your fears. You are my warriors- growing into strong incredible spirits that can endure anything. Keep singing and smiling!

Helen, thank you for the book: “Love Does” It is so true. LOVE is a verb. Love can talk all day long- it can send pretty cards- but you hit the nail on the head with this great book! Thank you Dear. I am enjoying every word. 

Lynn, you astound me. Quietly doing the task that needs to be done. You find solutions and forge ahead. You do not waste one second fretting or fearing! God knows I love you for that! You are an angel doing God's work! You will argue with me- forever about it- however, you are the ultimate healer. Love is patient and present.  You inspire me!

There is another woman, who would just as soon go unnoticed. She likes to stay behind the scenes. She sits upon the ledge- watching the masses walk by. She can see with her energy eyes, as I see her. She pours her wisdom out easily so we do not drown in it. Thank you for your wise words today.

“You will never change your life

until you change your daily routine.”

I soooo needed those words! Thank you Dear! (hugging you tight)

And last, my Beloved. I am in awe of you Anita. Your courage to love someone half way around the worlds astounds me. I thought I knew what love was- but I didn’t have a clue. I think this love can’t get any better – I soar higher and higher- and then the love does get better. It is a reverent sacred transcending love. You are the red wood tree with arms in heaven. I rest in your arms -(even if only in my minds eye.)You are strong- you are my warrior Love.

And finally- I am in awe of you. You – reading this- your continued love and support blows me away. Every day- you stop in to read my blog. You viewing my blog, shows up in the stats and I feel loved.

It is a simple thing- what you do- reading my blog. BUT it is the DOING- that is love.

I thank you for your LOVE! I adore your LOVE!

Let us grow stronger to-get-her!

I love you! J

Ringing in the Carrot

Original art created by Judith Parsons- especially for this blog!

Ringing in the Carrot

I admit- I first wrote: Ringing in the “impossible” miracles.

Have ever- as I wrote- as all the incredible occurrence’s of the past 3 weeks transpired…well..you will see….

The past 3 weeks  I have spent beside a Reiki master who kept surprising me with incredible happenings. Synchronicity moments kept occurring-- that left me believing in the “impossible” becoming possible.

Ask and it shall be given.

Just do it. Ask!

Asking for what you desire is crucial- because it makes you ASSESS (I just noticed that the word in all caps- has “ass” in the front of it…laughing- dear Lord- bear with me) what and where you are. If you don’t have a goal…you will never get there.

Simple- yes! Incredibly daunting- YES!!!

Write it out- make a list! I have a friend who loves to make list! (waving) You know who you are! Thank you for telling me to make list. It finally sunk into me…I am better for it. (grinning)

Sorry I lost track- I do that- branches of conversations all over the place…Back to becoming what you desire.

You will be surprised by what happens. Be careful what you ask for. Because the universe- God- Life- will give you so many choices that you are stumbling over the possibilities!

That is the point of life- to give you so many options that you need to focus upon which options truly satisfies your deepest wanting.

NOW is a good time to ask. The full moon is ripe and ready for your intentions. PLEASE ask – as you pray- as you meditate. As you simply focus on becoming you.  As you stand out under the full moon. What do you really want?

You see- I am doing what I really want. And I have to trust in that. I am LEARNING to become a better artist. I am becoming the sculptress that I have always wanted to be!

I know- I could fly over here and there and get a “job”. But –really- is that my CORE purpose NOW? My purpose now- is to become the best artist I can become.

It requires dedication and time. LOTS and lots of time crating art- perfecting my craft!

One last thing:

You see- While my Reiki master was walking the streets of San Francisco with me- she suggested we go watch the ice skaters. And lo and behold- we met a woman looking for a mature person to work beside her- she was posting a job at her college.

I was stunned. I am updating my resume now- to send to this beautiful new friend- who sparked me on.-All because Anita (waving) suggested we go see the ice skaters.

Honestly- I am struggling with the choice- money is a strong pull! Good God- money sways its golden carrot in front of me- and I have to decide…. Can I balance working and art?

In fact now as I write this –I see the golden carrot- in all the future pieces of art…I see this little golden carrot integrated in the next series of sculptures!

Well- well- well…Amazing huh? How I start out asking you to ask for your deepest desires…then this little golden carrot shows up…hmmm…(grinning) Pulling you into my arms for a huge swaying hug!!!

God knows life is grand!

I trust in God. I trust in the great unknown. I trust in all of us becoming who and what we desire most to be.

I love you!

J

New Beginning

This is from the book entitled: Benedictus A Book of Blessing by John O' Donohue.


For a New Beginning

In out of the way places of the heart,
Where your thoughts never think to wander,
This beginning has been quietly forming,
Waiting until you were ready to emerge.

For a long time it has watched your desire,
Feeling the emptiness growing inside of you,
Noticing how you willed yourself on,
Still unable to leave what you had outgrown.

It watched you play with the seduction of safety
And the grey promises that sameness whispered,
Heard the waves of turmoil rise and relent,
Wondered would you always live like this.

Then the delight when your courage kindled
And out you stepped onto new ground
Your eyes young again with energy and dream
A path plenitude opening before you

Through your destination is not yet clear
You can trust the promise of this opening,
Unfurl yourself into the grace of beginning
This is at one with your life's desire.

Awaken your spirit to adventure;
Hold nothing back, learn to find ease in risk;
Soon you will be home in a new rhythm
For your soul senses the world that awaits you.

Happy New Year!

Today I rang away the year. 

My Beloved Reiki Priestess, Anita suggested we start the new year off right by joining in a long standing Japanese tradition. Once a year, the Asian Art Museum lets guest strike a giant temple bell, 2,100 pound bell which leaves behind any unfortunate or regrettable experiences.


We rang the bell and went to have lunch.

I looked at my Beloved across the table and said:

There are thoughts

That float

Upon Leaves

Of the water

Of your mind

Then

There are thoughts

Like silt

That slowly

Filter to the

bottom ocean

Of your mind

Then there are people

Who are

the leaves

That help hold the thoughts

That make you

You

I must thank Anita for holding me together. I have changed sooo many times in the past year that my life is a blur! I also want to Thank my sister Lynn, she astounds me with her wisdom! She is an angel! She has kept me laughing when I felt like crying! I am blessed to have such incredible family!

I have many regrets. I left many things broken and torn asunder. There is no way to leave – one must turn on ones heel and walk toward the door promising more growth.

The bottom line is simple: TREAT others the way you want to be treated.

I will do better in the New Year.

I hug each and every one of you! 

I hold you close and I cherish the light and love from your eyes. I believe in “US”- as we weave one another closer. Becoming stronger each day as we support, love and challenge one another.

There is no fear- no anger. It is the past. It serves no purpose.

It is time.

Time to take FULL responsibility for who you are –NOW.

It is a scary place to stand- and at the same time incredible exhilarating- to know you can SOAR! WOW!! Just wow!!!

No one- but you can make –you happy.
If you work hard you will succeed.
If you believe in your dreams- they WILL come true.
IF you persist- AND ALWAYS work toward your dream – THEN YOU WILL SUCCEED!!!

 I believe in each and every one of you!

May we all be healthy! May we flourish and be abundant!

May we not take any of it for granted!

I love you!

J

(I just read this to Anita- and she said: "Be gentle with yourself- don't beat yourself up!" God knows I love her!)

Margaret Parsons

Art by Margaret Parsons. Her art is just as intriguing as she is- a rich
depth of color and flowing fluidity- Beautiful- like her!

My daughter has been nice enough to invite me into her world. She is sharing her bed, her home and her friends with me. 

Yesterday I got a glimpse of her at her work, all dressed in black. She is an elegant woman. I am in awe of her, she commands attention when she walks into a room. People smile and say “Hello Margaret!” She radiates happiness! I am blessed to have this magical woman as my daughter!

Can you see me grinning from ear to ear?

I am a firm believer in things crossing our path when we are ready to learn from that object. God, or the Universe, of whatever or whomever you believe, weaves these lessons for you- is waiting for you to dream, sing and read to find your passion.

If you are a dreamer, then chances are you will dream about things that excite you and give you “ah –ha” moments. If you are a lover of music then chances are a song will play on the radio, that brings to you a new thought, that will take you the next step along your journey. Or if you are a reader then you will stumble across words that become birds and uplift you into the stratosphere of enlightenment.

I have picked up a book from beside my daughter’s bed. And I admit, sheepishly, I am skimming her words, I am interested in what she felt was important enough to underline.

My children know I blurt out my thoughts, I say whatever comes to mind and do not apologize anymore for me. I have no fear anymore about words or what I am or what I am lacking. I am finally getting to that place of not needing to justify myself to anyone. The most important person (I am happy to report) that I am not justifying myself to- is MYSELF.

(laughing)

I have Anita Boyle, a Reiki master to thank for that. She has endlessly coached me about “being gentle with myself”. She has giving me affirmations so when I look in the mirror I smile at myself- verses the earlier scolding of self. Thank you Anita, for "getting me" and helping me learn to love myself.

The book beside Margaret's bed is deep, it asks lots of questions about learning, love and what is the purpose of life. As I skim the words- I smile at my daughter’s under lined words: “look in the mirror, just observe what you are and move on”.

Amen!

I am in awe of my daughter, she is so mature and centered. She is the eye of the storm- the quiet place of knowing. The vortex. She has no idea what energy she spins about her, she is passionate about her art, her life her path. I could not be more proud of her!!!

She smiles, she nods, her eyes sparkle and she is one incredible young lady!!

Can we all agree on one simple statement: There is no need to justify anything to anybody.

Period. The end. The person you have to make happy is you. That’s it. (grinning and pulling you into a huge hug)

Do what makes your heart happy.
Seeing you smile- makes me happy.

I love you!

The Hand of NOAA

Now I am visiting my daughter in Portland for Christmas. My son is visiting and I admit I miss my ex-husband. (sigh) It is not complete without him. However, life moves on, we all move on and we live and we learn.

I was astounded when I cam upon the huge sculpture down town. It is called “Portlandia” it is by the artist  Raymond Kaskey. It is the second largest statue in the United States-after the Statue of Liberty. It is 34 feet tall. Wow!

He also created this incredible piece: “The Hand of NOAA” Wow!! We are all more connected than we know. I am not sure if I will ever create art as magnificent as Mr. Kaskey- however, I sure would love to try!

Standing at the bus stop, I noticed these little circles laying upon the sidewalk. It looks as if someone’s necklace broke, and the chain was walked upon leaving these random links.

I walked around and found 8 little pieces. Like a crow who likes shiny objects, I kept walking around feeling that eight wanted to be found. 8- turned upon its side the infinity symbol. Eight a special number to be sure. 5 children in my family, 2 represent my parents and one represents my grand mother.

Just rambling thoughts, connecting to you and wishing you some peace this season. I wish divine serenity to you all. It is a choice to wrap yourself in loving thoughts. Be gentle with yourself. Sip a warm beverage and smile. Let the warmth of that smile spread through out your back, shoulders and spine.

Feel my arms hugging you. A sixty second hug, feel my hands stroking your back, and know you are loved.

Enjoy the holiday. What ever your beliefs are. Take the time to wrap yourself in a hug. You are loved. (smiling sigh) We are all one Love!