Responsibility

“Take responsibility for yourself.”

All day long Deepak’s words whispered in my ear. I glanced over my shoulder and in my peripheral vision I could see the more disciplined me, wanting me to choose her. I know, I know, I sound like I have cracked my head open. 

I have not. There just comes a time when one decides to do something.

That something, has been on the edge of me, for a long time. The more vibrant and stylish and healthier me is ready to do the figuring out of the equation to create herself. So lets think this problem out logically. What needs to happen?

First off, I need to slim down. I need to take in less calories than I am consuming. So, how many calories do I need to take in, to loose 2 pounds a week? I search and find out the numbers. I also look up how much swimming burns up how many calories. And then I start honestly looking at the foods I eat. How many calories in dark chocolate, how many calories in olive oil, how many calories in milk, peanut butter, nutella, bananas, cereal, black bean chili. 

I am starting to get a clear idea of what has been the problem.

I am enlightening myself on who and what I am..and who and what I want to be. It is being very aware of what I take in. What I do…and it isn’t that hard to figure out.